the Fox's Hole

9.01.2004

Mark's ABCs

A is for Apples

I used to be a really morning person - a very very early morning person and if there's anything I'd love to keep a stash of in the fridge to munch on during these wee hours, it's gotta be apples. I especially like the green ones. And I've been told that apples are more effective and keep you awake longer than the regular cup of coffee. Well, it works for me! Yum!

B is for Bunwich

My place of work is situated near Dunkin Donuts, which makes it convenient for me to have my daily serving of Bunwich. Of course, there are variants so that I'd not get too fed up with it. ;)

C is for Coffee

Actually my first love. Hot or cold, instant or brewed, in or out of the house. Decaf works too, but if it's on an all-nighter, it's gotta have enough sugar to compensate. I started my six mugfull habit way back in high school when I was "cramming in style." Ever the faithful companion, and it got me through.

D is for Dolgers

Nine friends with but one heartbeat. What was once a group of talented individuals is now more than worthy to be called a family. Elessar, he who bears algiz, the rune of protection; Ciongs, teiwaz, the valiant warrior; Mean, she who possesses raido, rune of the journey; Watots, his hidden rune, odin, the unknowable; Nessa, her rune berrana, that of growth; BB, firmly holding iza, rune of standstill; Mia, given mannaz, the rune of self; Ylio, keeper of thurizaz, rune of the gateway; and Nime, endowed with uruz, the rune of strength. They've taken separate paths, but they will find their way home - to each other.

E is for Ectar

Recent penname. One I'll probably be using until I die. It's actually the name of the Spectral Knight (Remember Visionaries? That 80's cartoon series?) who turns into a fox. I actually forgot his name because it's been so long since I last saw the show. I finally came across it again a few months back and decided to use it as a pseudo.

F is for Fearless

My Blog's title. Trying to live up to it too. I've done some mighty reckless things in my life and people tell me those were my acts of fearlessness. Not really the daredevil kind, though. I never thought I could be this much a risk-taker in terms of laying it out there, but then again, what the hell. I've been there and done that, what else is there to lose? Can't say I'm there just yet, but day by day, I know I'm on my way.

G is for Gabe

Trick gets my hopeless romantic side every time. I think about Gabe and how in that night, he took life by the balls, and I'd say wow, that really could happen couldn't it? I'd remember that song, 'Enter You,' in my head and catch myself humming along. Some feel-good kilig moments too. Definitely part of my best-loved flicks list.

H is for Homosuperiors

Mutants. I'm one of 'em. Ever since I was a kid, I've grown rather fond of the X-men and the other X-teams, their backgrounds, their looks, not to mention their costumes, but most importantly, their mutant abilities. Even as a preteener, I'd still have the cards laid down in front of me in bed, picking each one out and reading it meticulously. I'm fascinated by them, thinking to this day that man's evolution could very well take its next turn any time soon.

I is for Ireland

Two things from Ireland that are really close to my heart. First, the Claddagh. It's formed by two hands (which symbolize friendship) and a crown (which represents loyalty) on a heart (well, that's love). And second, The Corrs. 'Nuff said.

J is for Japanese Animation

I liked it the moment I first saw it. I've been accustomed to seeing cartoons and when I first saw Japanese anime, I knew that it was the art style I'd want to learn, or more specifically, their comic art called manga. The dynamics and life that the artists put in every scene just take my breath away. I also enjoy the occasional quirks and antics characters do, with them suddenly becoming super-deformed or hilariously dressed.

K is for Kitsune

Kitsune is fox in Japanese. It all started when I first got with my high school friends. They admitted that they thought I was too much a 'good boy' (yeah, right) and didn't think I could be friends with them until we all got ourselves into trouble one afternoon. They said I was like this fox character in an anime series, so afterwards I owned up to it.

L is for Leo

I am a true blue Leo, very flamboyant but very proud of it. But I cling onto the artistic, expressive side of Leos, vibrant and verbal, more than the domineering 'King of the Jungle' attitude. I feel passion for things and I keep it burning. Even true with people.

M is for Magick

As I've always been attracted to the extraordinary and the superhuman, I found that the Craft could hold the answers when scientific reason fails to come up with them. That the earth and everything in and on it are intertwined and bound to this delicate balance of power, that if anyone could master, he can actually get the elements to do his bidding. Whoa.

N is for Neruda

My friends would give or read Pablo Neruda's poetry to me on various occasions. And every time they would, I'd get enthused to write my own. He's one of the poets I look up to the most.

O is for Old Black Books

I keep a stack of poetry, journals, drawings, letters and short stories that I had bound. These are the black books. I had found some of my old doodles from high school, along with a journal and some unfinished stories, so I decided to have them compiled. Early this year, I got inspired and started writing again after such a long time since high school. So as a tribute to the person who inspired me, I gave out one of the books as a birthday gift. I have the rest of them by my bedside.

P is for Pencils

I write and draw most of my stuff with my trusty pencils. I've a 0.3-point for fine details and a 0.5-point for writing and sketching. I always have them with me so I can either write or draw or both wherever I can, whenever the inspiration strikes.

Q is for Quasi-Evil

I took this online quiz, 'How Evil are You?' for my blog and found that the Scourge of Lipa has scored below fifty percent and was dubbed "Quasi-Evil." Well, that has to mean I'm getting better, right? Not really after the Big Bad wrap anymore anyway.

R is for Red

I don't know how well red complements my dark skin but hell I like it! Not necessarily on me, but I've grown this attachment to red things - I'd probably have a lot more red stuff in my room from now on. (Damn, and I just had it repainted!) But I noticed that since early this year, I've been getting a lot of red items - bags, shirts, a jacket. The red sports car shouldn't be far behind.

S is for Sleeping Disorders

Okay, it could really be either coffee (or apples) or the lack of it that's causing me to constantly mess up my body clock, especially in terms of sleep. I'm either too sleepless, restless and too hyped up, or you'll have better luck marrying the Queen of England than getting me out of bed, let alone waking me up from sleep. Messed up, I tell yah!

T is for Tuna

I don't remember being this bonkers about anything tuna before. Now I have tuna as often as I can - breakfast, lunch, dinner and in-between. Not getting tired of it either! And definitely not complaining. I'd be happy even if I can eat it from the can, but of course I'd prefer to prepare it with anything that I can grab hold of in the kitchen.

U is for Unholy Hours

The best time to write and draw. Late hours of the night to the early hours of the morning really are the most fruitful hours to get down on something (I think most people know this, one way or another). I'd freshen up, then I'd sit comfortably by my friendly table and get to work. Here at home, I get the silence and peace that I need to concentrate on writing or drawing.

V is for Vampire

Being a creature of the night (at one time of my life), getting into occult stuff, lingering at places I shouldn't be in during times when I shouldn't even be outside anymore, not to mention the excessive cravings for dinuguan, yeah, I was quite the vampire fan. My being a groupie for shows like Buffy the Vampire Slayer should attest to that. (I missed just one episode since it started airing in the Philippines in 1998.)

W is for Wayne

Batman will always be my favorite hero. True, he has no superpowers (his infamous charming bachelor personality notwithstanding), but that really isn't his weakness. He still manages to get the bad guys and make it to the Justice League. Besides, wouldn't it be cool to have your own cave littered with brand new customized state-of-the-art gadgets designed for your own crime-fighting pleasure?

X is for X-Genome Code

Bloody Roar is a game series that features Zoanthropes, who've the ability to transform into beasts. By the third installment, they came up with really cool symbols for each character and then called it the XGC. The character I use the most is Jenny, a beauty queen slash model that turns into a bat. She packs some mean kicks and very few have ever survived me when I use her.

Y is for Yahoo Messenger

Not MiRC, not AIM. I've always preferred YM over the others since I got to start off with it well. I guess it's even more user-friendly than the others anyway. I can go and chat for an hour or so, and just before logging off, another friend goes online and I'm at it again. =p

Z is for Zealot

One of the last stories I wrote was about a Zealot named Wyatt. A Zealot is a force of good, driven by magick, and I'm still working on the technicalities and formalities as I go along with the story.

:: Marik's clawmarks at 2:13 PM

8.27.2004

i want you stay
never go away from me
stay forever
but now, now that you're gone, all i can do is pray for you
to be here beside me again

why did you have to leave me?
when you said that love would conquer all
why did you have to leave me
when you said that dreaming was good as reality

and now i must move on
trying to forget all the memories
of you near me
but i can't let go of your love that has taught me
to hold on

i want you to stay never go away from me, stay forever
i want to stay but i have to go my way...

stay
carol banawa

the Lord has taken you away from us, ado. at around two p.m. yesterday, mr. reynaldo mojares passed away. diane, norman and i were at his wake last night. and despite knowing that nothing is more certain in this world than life and death, i feel so convicted that i allowed time to rob us of the chances- but i never took you for granted. you loved us like a true father would his children. if we are indeed mutants, then you've always been our professor xavier. thank you for bringing us together. thank you for your hands that held us, for arms that accepted us, for your words that inspired us and for the life that you've shared with us.

you left us as one of the most accomplished men i have ever known. you've taught us and you've taught us well. and everything you've given us, we'll bring to every corner of this world. your adoisms, yeah, those too. the PETA group, the buttercups, the dolgers - all of us. we'll show what you've done to the ends of the earth. (both angel and nessa have taken their first bold steps. we'll all follow suit)

i remember the first time i saw him. i was a fourth grader, had a knack for making trouble and causing others to follow my lead. until all of a sudden, our religion teacher imposed on her students to be involved in their respective parishes. i was seriously considering just staying behind after every mass and wipe the saints clean. that was supposed to be enough to meet my teacher's requirements. five of us classmates opted to do that every sunday. that week, while waiting for the mass to end, this man, who looked like he was either in his late twenties or his early thirties, approached us. he seemed to have recognized us from his co-teacher's class in school. he asked us if we wanted to join the children's choir instead.

and so that was how we met. this little boy and his first choir master.

since then, he'd meet us every week. he'd ask us to come to church at around five in the morning to sing for the five thirty mass. then we'd have breakfast together. i so loved the toast with coco jam or sandwich spread and cheese and the tall glass of orange juice. that went on until the end of high school, of course by then we were no longer the children's choir, but the youth choir. there were also some members that left, and new ones that came along, but the relationship he has with us has remained steadfast and it grew stronger with every new musical piece, with every concert, every simbang gabi, with every panuluyan, with every presentation.

i was in second year high school when he became head of a team to produce a musical play to be written by our homegrown talents. he chose a few students, and i was fortunate enough to be part of it. he was the only person who was able to make me sing, dance and act (all at the same time) on stage! it was where us mutants, the dolgers, were formed. sleepless nights of writing, trainings, rehersals, recording, and goofing off were indeed more than any amount of money can buy, and we look back at it as if it were just a minute ago. it further strengthened him as a mentor to us, bearing with each one of us, and it humbled us to see him living up to that so well. it endeared him more to us.

more songs. more melodies and harmonies. it was a lifestyle that we adapted ourselves to. i remember the earlier days when i thought the service i put in as a member of the choir was something i could use to atone for all the mischief i had done, but he showed me that i'd rather do it for what it really is- service. selfless and heartfelt. he was the best example for that.

but around two years after graduation, i left the choir because i chose to focus on the people and other things that i seem to have lost track of since high school. not that i completely shoved off ado or the choir, because i still took time to see them and make sure i know what was happening to them, but i felt like it was time for me to explore some possibilities. i thought it was high time that i get a little of my old life back. work, late nights, couch potatoing.

around the same time i found out that ado was suffering again from an illness. i had thought it was lung cancer originally, but i found out recently that it wasn't. had to do with his digestive tract, i presume, since i found out he was in some kind of diet. from then on, i saw less and less of him as the weeks passed by. until more weeks, then months, and before i knew it, it was already a year and a half that i wasn't able to see him. i missed him terribly, but his family was very careful about visitors, because he was really in a critical condition.

i was all set to tell him about everything that's happened since i last saw him. all the ups and downs of this so-called emotional rollercoaster i was so fond of riding and writing about, all the people that changed my life while i kept this part he knew distinctly the same. but now, it's too late.

i read this bulletin entry from a community website i belong to, it was about a guy who didn't have the guts to say what he really feels about a girl up until the day she died, then he finds out she's been waiting all her life for him to say how he feels. i'm only glad that, on another context, i had not wasted all the time that i knew him holding back the words and actions to show him that i appreciate him. because i did. i do. i always will.

again, thank you ado. you'll live everyday in us.

:: Marik's clawmarks at 10:37 AM

8.24.2004

the long and winding road
that leads to your door
will never disappear
i've seen that road before
it always leads me here
lead me to your door

the wild and windy night
that the rain washed away
has left a pool of tears
crying for the day
why leave me standing here
let me know the way

many times i've been alone
and many times i've cried
anyway you'll never know
the many ways i've tried

but still they lead me back
to the long winding road
you left me standing here
a long long time ago
don't leave me waiting here
lead me to your door

but still they lead me back
to the long winding road
you left me standing here
a long long time ago
don't keep me waiting here
lead me to your door

the long and winding road
the beatles

:: Marik's clawmarks at 10:53 AM

8.11.2004

i intended to post this entry last sunday pa. but i was so beat up that it took me all this time. plus i had midterms yesterday, which i totally had no idea about. heheh. so here you go!

last night was a blast! it was another saturday above the usual ones.

i asked my mum if she and i could prepare dinner for a few friends as celebration of my twenty-first. she agreed, but the moment i turned my back, she was on the phone calling all my relatives! and the next thing i knew, the simple dinner turned into this fiesta-like occasion and the whole clan was there. color me overwhelmed, i really didn't expect that many people to come drop by. i felt like i were seven years old again, minus the balloons and the clown. i had a two layer cake, blue, kinda gurly, but hey, it was my debut! hahah.

lotsa cousins and friends came. people from my socio-civic org, the dolgers represented by mama dhee, ciongs and norman, and of course carlo and his kids, the most fab, sassy, the coolest, the best and greatest djs i've ever known, the peeps of 103.7 LYCEUM CAMPUS RADIO!!! (check my links out to get to their wicked site. wicked, i tell yah.) we were up most of the night. whoa! that was quite an all nighter, it really was. vodka was my enemy, nescafe ice my ally. (did the move! heheh) all in all, one of the best house functions i've done. (i'm talking like i'm a guest. pfft.)

well, thanks to all who came. you really made it special for me. take care, y'all.

:: Marik's clawmarks at 2:49 PM

8.06.2004

melanisms. laugh your heart out.

- "my brother is not a girl; he's a gentleman." (well, i certainly hope so.)

- "that's why i'm a success, it's because i don't middle in other people's lives." (translation: matagumpay ako dahil di ako nakikialam sa buhay ng may buhay. aaah...)

- "don't judge my brother; he's not a book."

- "i won't stoop down to my level." (is that even possible?)

- "hello? bulag ka ba? bingi ka ba? are you dep?" (translation: hellur? gel ka ba?)

- "'yung STD, baka sa maruming toilet lang niya nakuha yan." (STD? Sickening Toilet Disease?!)

- "eh, ikaw ba naman, durugin ang ari mo... pag di ka naman manutok ng baril."

- "we are lovers, not fighters." (omigod! you're involved!)

- "kapatid ko pa rin siya. we are one and the same." (hmmm.. people, do you think so too? huh? huh?)

- "i don't eat meat. i'm not a carnival." (ahh... di sha kumakain ng karne kasi wala sha sa perya)

- "eto na po ang pinakamaligayang pasko at manigong taon sa inyong lahat." (during her acceptance speech at a metro filmfest awards night where her bioflick, directed by her late father temyong marquez, won an award) (merry christmas din at happy new year sa iyo!)

- "sumasakit ang migraine ko." (hee-lurrr?!?)

- "ang tatay ko ang only living legend na buhay!" (ah, okay.)

- "period na talaga; wala nang exclamation point." (when asked on s-files if her present husband, adam lawyer, is her mr. right.)

- (at a talk show after her break-up with derek dee, melanie was asked if she had some words for derek's mother, whom she partly blamed for the separation) "oo nga," said melanie, "pero i-english-in ko para maintindihan niya." she looked into the camera and, with the peremptoriness of royalty, said, "and to you, mrs. dee, i have two words for you. ang labo mo!" (maybe when translated, that's 'vague you!' di ba, two words?)

- funfare by ricardo lo
the philippine star, 5 aug 2004
compiled by jonathan chua

:: Marik's clawmarks at 8:43 PM

waking up this morning thinking this can't be real
but they say there's nothing love can't heal
why don't you come on down
so you can feel what i feel?

sitting all alone in this place
even though we're here face to face
there is nothing gone
but there's something wrong.

can't you see that i'm stuck here underneath?
and you're making it hard to breathe
take a look around and tell me what you see
you'll find me underneath

i know what to say but don't know where to begin
i fear of losing you beneath my skin
is there resolution for this pain that i'm in

sittin' all alone in this place
even though we're here face to face
there is nothing gone
but there's something wrong

can't you see that I'm stuck in underneath?
and you're making it hard to breathe
take a look around and tell me what you see
you'll find me underneath

coz you'll find me

if only you could feel what i dream
maybe you hear what i mean

there is nothing gone but there's something missing

can't you see?
that i'm stuck in underneath
and you're making it hard to breathe
take a look around and tell me what you see
you'll find me underneath

coz i'm stuck in underneath
and your making it hard to breath
take a look around and tell me what you see
you'll find me
underneath
underneath

underneath
hanson

:: Marik's clawmarks at 8:39 PM

7.28.2004

1. what kind of first impression do you think you give people?
>>> quiet. kinda snobbish. usually, the people who do get to know me find out otherwise.

2. what's one thing you like to do alone?
>>> something i can do only when i'm alone. *wink*

3. are you a giver or a taker?
>>> right now, i'm being spoiled eh. tipong i've become the taker.

4. what have you stolen before?
>>> a kiss. heheh

5. how many drinks before you're tipsy?
>>> quite a few. but i'm not really a regular drinker anymore.

6. do you ever have to beg?
>>> nope

7. what kind of books do you like to read?
>>> those by my bedside

8. do you think you're cute?
>>> no

9. do you have a problem changing clothes in front of your friends?
>>> nope.

10. whats the most painful experience you've ever had?
>>> i accidentally stepped on a large nail when i was young. pierced right through my foot. aww.

11. favorite communication method?
>>> on the telephone. chattin online's also nice.

12. do you care?
>>> i give a shit.

13. what is your most prized piece of your music collection?
>>> the peta soundtrack

14. what is the geekiest part of your music collection?
>>> i used to have a backstreet boys album

15. what do you eat when you raid the fridge at night?
>>> apples

16. what is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
>>> a walk to remember~ hahah! then there's armageddon and pay it forward

17. if you could have surgery, what would you have done?
>>> i want them to take my heart out so that i could give it to the one i love. hahah morbid much.

18. what is a physical habit that gives away your insecure moments?
>>> i snore. badly.

19. do you know anyone famous?
>>> i think the reason why they're called famous is coz everybody knows them

21. describe your bed?
>>> it's comfy

22. spontaneous or planned?
>>> spontaneous

23. do you know how to play poker?
>>> yup. and i win everytime.

24. what do you carry with you at all times?
>>> my cellphone.

25. what do you miss most about being little?
>>> i get carried by everybody

26. are you happy with your given name?
>>> happy but i'd wish it were something else like wyatt or ectar hahah

27. how much money would it take to give up the internet for 1 year?
>>> much much money

28. what color is your bedroom?
>>> blue. but it's like a gurl's now.

29. have you ever been in a play?
>>> i've starred in one. hahaha

30. do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
>>> sure i do

31. do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?
>>> sometimes, but not always

32. do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
>>> i'm ubernice

33. do you spend more time with your special someone or your friends?
>>> my special someone hangs out with my friends, ergo, i get to be with them all at the same time! but the private time is never sacrificed.

34. what's one thing you wish you could do but can't?
>>> grow wings and fly. at least not just yet.

35. what is your ideal marriage location?
>>> garden

36. whats one instrument you wish you could play?
>>> the guitar

37. something you love and hate?
>>> at the same time? sometimes myself.

40. whats one language you want to learn?
>>> french

41. what do you order at a bar?
>>> water. on the rocks.

42. have you ever pierced your body parts?
>>> tried

43. do you have any tattoos?
>>> not yet

44. would you admit to getting plastic surgery if confronted?
>>> i haven't even had plastic surgery. but if i did, i would.

46. whats one trait you hate in a person?
>>> judgmental

48. do you consider yourself materialistic?
>>> sometimes

49. what do you cook best?
>>> pasta

50. do you cry in front of your friends?
>>> when you've friends like mine, it's encouraged. hahah ;)

more random friendster bulletin board posts

:: Marik's clawmarks at 5:38 PM

DID YOU KNOW.....

if you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee. (Hardly seems worth it.)

If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb. (Now that's more like it!)

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.

A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes. (WOW!, what...)

A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death. (Creepy. I'm still not over the pig.)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour. (Do not try this at home...... maybe at work.)

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off. ("Honey, I'm home. What the....?!")

The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field. (30 minutes... lucky pig... can you imagine??)

The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds. (What could be so tasty on the bottom of a pond?)

Some lions mate over 50 times a day. (I still want to be a pig in my next life...quality over quantity)

Butterflies taste with their feet. (Something I always wanted to know.)

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue. (Hmmmmmm........Do you wanna know why?!?)

Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people. (If you're ambidextrous, do you split the difference?)

Elephants are the only animals that cannot jump. (OK, so that would be a good thing....)

A cat's urine glows under a black light. (I wonder who was paid to figure that out?)

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain. (I know some people like that.)

Starfish have no brains. (I know some people like that too.)

Polar bears are left-handed. (If they switch, they'll live a lot longer.)

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure. (What about that pig??)

random friendster bulletin board postings

:: Marik's clawmarks at 5:30 PM

7.21.2004

[what is your favorite ]
1.gum: orbits.
2.drink: anything with caffeine
3.season: i don't have to choose a favorite season
4.emotion: giddy.
5.thing to do on a half day: from work? go out!
6.late-night activity: blog. draw. look at my ceiling and reminisce. have my six mugfulls.
7.city: sunnydale

[ when was the last time you ]
8.cried: last week! over spiderman 2 when i first watched it! end of the train sequence. such a softy sometimes. hahah
9.laughed: bout five minutes ago
10.hugged someone: this morning, i wrestled with my sibs
11.kissed someone: this morning
12.felt depressed: over a month ago, i think
13.felt overworked: just this afternoon! dammit! people coming in at the shop all at once!
14.lied: i'm wearing underwear now. there. i lied. (that i lied. get it? heheh)
(recollection of pinocchio's thong incident in shrek 2)

[ what was the last ]
15.words you said: ...cool with you
16.thing you ate: bicho with cheese
17.song you listened to: high, lighthouse family
18.thing you drank: water
19.place you went to: technically, that would be hell (school) i'm at work now, and i'm answering this survey for the third time. waste of my boss's money. hahah
20.movie you saw: spiderman 2. for the third time.
21.movie you rented: so close

[ who was the last person you ]
22.hugged: my sibs
23.cried over: YOU know who you are.
24.kissed: my mum
25.danced with: friends
26.shared a secret with: angel.
27.had a sleepover with: angel.
28.called: kuya ricky
29.went to a movie with: my brother and some friends
30.saw: jenette. she's right beside me.
31.were angry with: not telling.
32.couldn't take your eyes off: myself~ hahah!
33.obsessed over: pfft.

[ have you ever ]
34.danced in the rain: yup. every chance i get, i do it.
35.kissed someone: pfft. what do you think? well, not
only kiss, but... kiss-kiss. bleagh.
36.done drugs: nah.
37.drank alcohol: yup, but i'm back to my sober lifestyle.
38.partied 'til the sun came up: yup.
39.gone too far on a dare: i don't think so.
40.taken a survey quite like this before: over and over and over

[ my life ]
41.name: mark
42.birthday: august 3
43.relationship status: double. *drum sound:
tugudug-tsss*
44.nationality: filipino
45.occupation: pagemaker/student/scribbler turned layout artist/all-around guy

[ play ]
46.i'm feeling: really bored. (hence the survey-answering) and famished.
47.i'm listening to: bigger than my body, john mayer
48.i'm doing: this.
49.i'm craving: uhm. tacos! *drool*
50.i'm thinking of: someone
51.i'm hating: not really big on hate. ever.

[ love ]
52.love is: something we all have to have
53.my first love: broke my heart
54.my current love: lubb? who, me?
55.best love song: your lover's heartbeat. no,
seriously. the actual heart beat. it goes 'lubb
lubb... lubb lubb... lubb lubb...'
56.is it possible to be in love w/ more than one
person at the same time: yeah
57.when love hurts, i: before, i'd retreat to my
little fox's hole. now, love has made me
fearless. so if it friggin' hurts me, i know it's
gonna hurt! i'd shut up and take it like a man.
58.is there such thing as love @ first sight?: i
think i fell for this one before.

[ attraction ]
60.turn ons: great big heart. passionate soul.
crazy.
61.turn offs: judgmental and self-centered
62.do your parent's opinion on your gf/bf matter
to you?: at a certain level, yeah. but love's
love. you've to stand up for it.
63.what is the sweetest thing a guy/girl can do
for you?: brave the rain at around half past ten
in the evening just to bring me chicken nuggets
coz i haven't had dinner yet.
65.are you the type of person to holla and ask
for numbers?: nope.

[picky picky]
66.dog or cat: dogs. but puss in boots is cute
too.
67.sunshine or rain: sunshine
68.hugs or kisses: hugs. and kisses.
69.summer or winter: summer.
70.playstation or nintendo: ps
71.car or motorcycle: car.
72. house party or club: house party.
73. sing or dance: sing.

[ lately ]
74.how are you today?: bored now.
75.what pants are you wearing right now?: jeans
76.what shirt are you wearing right now?: my blue bench shirt
77.what song are you listening to right now?: do i need a reason, d'sound
78.how is the weather right now?: cloudy and dark. kinda cold too.
79.who was last person i talked to on the
phone?: kuya ricky(i think i've answered this one ah)
80.last dream you remember?: bout my father being home all of a sudden and we're having his bathroom renovated

[ wishes ]
81.money or love: kwarta! may pag-ibig na ako!
82.what's ur biggest wish for one other person:
to be loved as much as i am.

:: Marik's clawmarks at 9:25 PM

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